My Cardinal Sin (demo)
There’s a cactus in the corner of the room
A housewarming gift from you
I forget to take care of it.
But every time I don’t remember it needs food
somehow it still blooms
it doesn’t seem to need me much
But still I feel a little guilty not to act
Like maybe I should give it back
Or wonder am I scared of it
It’s just as easy to forget that it’s sufficient on its own
And it’s resilient and other people water it too
Cause
Sometimes I am unaware of other people standing there
As I get caught in the moment
Believing that I’m necessary to the narrative,
might be my cardinal sin
Life is a series of hurts and we learn from a couple
Trying to be what we know that were not yet
You know as well as I do
Do you remember when I said
I was afraid that you might leave
And then you loved me selflessly
As I walked away
It’s funny how the hardest thing for me
is not honest or at peace
But being consistently good
To everyone that’s hard for me to see
By my side or on the street
Loving is difficult work
But it’s hardest to believe that
That they’re sufficient on their own
And their resilient and other people see them too
Sometimes I am unaware of other people standing there
As I get caught in the moment
Believing that I’m necessary to the narrative,
might be my cardinal sin
Life is a series of hurts and we learn from a couple
Trying to be what we know that were not yet
You know as well as I do
What can I do
When I hurt you
Maybe I’ll learn something new
But I hate that I hurt you
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